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DAH MIGRATE!!

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 15:32:38 GMT

Dear Folks,

To all my readers... Just want to inform you that I have "PINDAH" rumah!! Please click to the link and you will be directed to the new "rumah".

Do update the links if you read my blogs every now and then. Terima Kasih...Thanks Folkss..

Cheers.

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Today is just not my blogging day...

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 12:47:33 GMT

Dear Folks,

Please bear with me as today is just not my blogging day. I missed my kids. I just want to go home but I can't. I'm still on the additional drips.

The doctor came in late and I'm only allowed to be released till this drips is off. I'm so pisst and I just wanna go home. I'm so tired.

Anyway, please bear with me as currently "tengah nak migrate blog ni kat another host!!" So..will let you guys know the outcome.

Ahh...just to add on..few minutes ago, the nurse came in and took out my "chemo connection 2.0". I am now free!!! Free from the drips!! I can go home!! But first, I need to take a nice hot shower!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Later folks.

My Thoughts and My Peace of Mind....

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 03:19:18 GMT

I wrote this, this morning while staring at my ward window looking out towards the world outside. It may not be something you see in the European Countryside view with the snow at the peak of a mountain and all but, it's good enough to appreciate some little greens, nature and most of the mushroom bricks of shop houses and all...

Wrote it on a napkin then transfered it online to this blog.

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CANCER,

It's no longer a death sentence;

It's no longer a disease that attacks the older generation;

It's getting common in this up beat new generation;

CANCER,

Anyone may have it without you knowing it;

Around you, within your circle of friends;

Just like you and me, our children, sisters or brothers and relatives or families;

Don't be afraid of it;

Don't let it get into you;

Fight it! Be Strong! Be Positive and Heal your emotions and your thoughts about it;

Put the illness behind you;

Go on with your normal life;

Have your peace of mind;

CANCER,

Can be a blessing in disguise;

ALLAH must have given it to us for a reason;

Believe in his reasons;

And don't question the WHY'S...

There is a cure if we believe in it and be strong to believe that we can survive;

So be STRONG, Be TOUGH, Be POSITIVE and have all the will POWER to fight till the end.

By Mobilemom�2005

I'm not afraid, I want to live, to survive for my children and my family and I believe that ALLAH works in a mysterious ways. Insya'ALLAH.

4th Day after 2nd Chemo cycle....

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 01:01:43 GMT

The Oncologist nurse came in early as usual. Woke me up from my beauty sleep...asked me several questions again.

An hour later, my Oncologist came to check on me. Asking me few questions too. Based on my answers and what I'm feeling, I'm not allowed to be discharged today. So, it's going to be more monitoring situation again as usual.

More medication to add.

More drips to flush out my systems.

Something for my headaches as and when needed.

Blood test will be done this morning.

More time for some peace of mind and relaxation even though hospital food sucks big time!!

CONCLUSION: I don't mind. I'm OK. I needed all the rest and to make sure that everything in my internal system is doing what it's supposed to do. Anything for the price of GETTING HEALTHY BACK AGAIN so that I can have my normal life (Insya'ALLAH) and be there for my children and family always.

p.s
To both my siblings, THANK YOU for lending me your ears and listening to my worries.

3rd Day After 2nd Cycle Chemo....

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 12:57:02 GMT

Tired.... I feel very very tired easily...

Nausea comes off and on...

Headaches comes off and on...

Appetite wise still eating well...(i think)...

Still on drips till tomorrow morning...

Discharged depends on my blood test tomorrow morning too...

CONCLUSION: I NEED TO REST and RELAX MORE.

LIVESTRONG!! Be STRONG!!

[But somehow, I feel a very strong burden on my shoulder. Something that I just can't seem to find a solution to ease the pain and the burden off my shoulder. I need to get my focus on my CANCER at the moment. And not something that will make me think or worry more than what I need right now.]

For my friends CK and F...

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 01:05:21 GMT

Hey, look I got the "unkymood" thingy too!! They are so cute!! CK...kalau ada lagi all this FUN thingy, let me know!! :) *grin*

Anyway, thanks so much for helping me to get that "thingy" for me. (shyyyyy) The reason why I wanted it so much is because I was "touched" by someone whom I don't even know and gave me one. Which you can read it in one of my blogs.

Do let me know when it has arrived at your place. I will make all the necessary arrangement. THANKS ALOT from the bottom of my heart.

Take care you guys...Have a great week ahead.

P/S..Heh heh heh tried this one too CK. Heh heh...

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The Morning After....

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 00:09:56 GMT

Got up about 6:30am (I think) cause of nature calls.

My neck felt really stiff. It could be the position that I slept last night.

Few minutes later while I was trying to get comfortable again on my bed, the oncologist nurse "L" came and visited me again. She does that every morning since I got admitted for my Chemotheraphy. Checking how I was coping and all. Telling her how I was feeling and all.

Hubby finally dragged his feet out from his bunk. This ward is really cold at night and in the mornings. We tend to get really "lazy" to freshen up just because it's cold and we can't control the tempreture as it's central aircond. *sigh*

Ohh... I told my brother last night that I was going to blog about him and his kids today. I was stunned actually as I saw my two young nephews who happens to be standard 5 and Form 2 (I think) watching "wrestling"!!! WRESTLING?? AWWMAAGAWWDDD!!! Who watches that CRAP!! My brother seems to know all the techniques of wrestings and all. I'm stunned!! He watched them since he was in the States!! DUH!! Helloooo!!! Of all the 100 channels they have you guys watched Wrestlings there?? In Jonesboro???? Oyyy... sad case la oyyy!!! (Aiyooh!!) The kids was like excitedly watching and laughing and ooohhh..I dunno!! What ever it is..I told them not to exposed it to my kids. ESPECIALLY my daughter!! Cause I can forsee that she may be able to wrestle and bully her brother!! Ohh no!!...Definately a BIG NO NO!!! Better start getting my daughter all the "girlie stuffs" from now. :P

Yesterday I was so embarrased when 3-4 nurse came in and told me that I have put on weight and my face looks so round!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! All the effort of me loosing weight last time just gone down the drain!! That's it!! Once all this "chemo" treatment is done and all, I'm gonna cut all my food intake in HALF!!! :P~ *sob* *sob* Well, I've reached to the weight that is recommeded by my dietician. But it sort off went 1kg more. So, I want to loose that 1kg. Don't care!! Say what you people want to say!! :P~~~ Even my hubby's bestfriends came and told me I have put on weight!! Arghhhhhhhh... Damn those steroids and appetite pills!!! Off with those pills!! Off with those pills!!! These are the pills which makes my cravings for food goes bezerks. I crave as if I was pregnant and I AM NOT!! Damn it!!

Anyway, I need to drag my feet off this bed soon before the doctors comes in to "check" on me. There's two of them really. My lung specialist and my Oncologist. I wouldn't want them to see me in yesterday's clothes. Eeeeiiii shyy!!

2nd Cycle Chemotheraphy Reaction....Effects...

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 14:05:59 GMT

Hmm.. I must admit that this time around, the physical and internal effect of my chemotheraphy is quite different from the 1st cycle. No too sure why. Possible of dosage, cause I know that this time around, the doctor whacked me 120% "chemo treatment". While the 1st chemo was 100%.

The difference is that I get very tired more often even though I'm in bed resting, blogging or walking to the toilet while pushing the pole on my own. (when the permanent male nurse is at the office).

Next is the after effect. Which is nausea. I get it quite often. So I have to ask for the anti-nausea medication every now and then when ever I need it. *yukkk* *double sigh*.... Thank god I have not thrown out yet. *phew*

Sometimes my fingers tend to tremble or gets shaky before I have my meals. Probably my sugar level is low. Or if I exert my self doing Yoga or QiGong and all.

I get headaches every now and then...well, off and on kind of thing I suppose. I assume it's the extra dosage. I will ask the Oncologist tomorrow when he comes in.

When I talk...(which I talk alot and hardly stop sometimes...*grin*) I tend to get shortness of breath. So, I should not talk so much and keep on blogging!! Let my fingers do the talking!! heh heh heh...

Ok folks..I'm waiting for my "graveyard shift" brother and his family to come and visit me. I assume that he is on the way here now. Getting a little groggy also at the same time. All this medication in my systems...*sigh*

Gnite folks...

More pics from my CHEMO Treatment....

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 06:42:57 GMT

Heh heh heh...

Well, actually it's apart of the whole process of my "chemo treatment". Some are taken yesterday and I combined them with today.

The drips..all over again...

Next drip please....goshh...

There you go...on the infusion pump pole again...

More injections!! I think that was the steroid thingy last night or was it the anti-nausea. :P

Huh..there's more...:( *sigh*

Infusion pump..notice the "black plastic cover"? It's the "chemo treatment" which started of early this time at about 11pm I think.

More injections. I think this one is the anti-nausea.

Goshh that's how slow it is. The flushing is faster than the "chemo treatment". ;P

There's more injections!! :P This one, I can't remember what it was.

The view from my bed. It's a little dark but the view is nice. Refreshing!! :)

OK folks...off to rest again. Getting sleepy with the medication. Later...

I'm stunned..I'm speechless..

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 04:03:53 GMT

When I read the entry below written by my "PMN", I was in tears inside. No matter how many times I read it yesterday and this morning, I was practically in tears all over again.

Quietly seating on my hospital bed facing the window view of the "famous residential area" in K.L. My husband once told me, it would be his dream to live here. I went like...DUH!! Don't think so.. we're staying put at where we are Thank you very much!!! ;P

Anyway, back to my thoughts and my stunned-ness (if there's such a word) of my husband's entry in my blogsite. He was seating quitely on the bed tapping away on his computer while my dad and cousin was blabbering away about ships..of all the motherships..cruise ships..merchant ships...bla bla bla....

I never thought of imagine what he was planning to blog last nite.

I would usually look forward for his funny sarcarstic, bold or silly stupid jokes about things he sees or thoughts of him planning for something that not many people (as a husband especially) would do. But instead, last night, I got a surprised entry coming in from my husband's heart. Beats all the romantic things or nice gesture in the world that I would think off. I was speechless and I was in tears.

But, I became stronger, I became re-energized. I was determine to get well even more for my children and for my families. (Including my parents, siblings and their families and not to forget my inlaws too). Thank you my dearest and wonderful and funny husband for your kind and beautiful thoughts.

To my bestfriend, lover, sweetheart, husband, love of my life....who's also known as permanent male nurse, infusion pump pole pusher, nanny to our children, husband and guardian to our family, financial controller while I'm sick, "private entertainer" (ohh shut off your naughty thoughts people!!), personal clown, and most important...my soul mate.....

There is no words in the world right now that I can say but I love you with all my heart and soul. I am a very lucky woman to have met you at the right time and at the right place through that special "mailing list". Thank you. Thank you for every little and big things plus your sacrifices of your time at work and juggling it for me.

OK..for that I shall give you your "PELITA NASI KANDAQ" or "MAHBOB" or "KAYU" night out with your bestfriends. ONLY for couple of hours!! *wide grin*. Please get your bestfriend to fill in some "off duty" forms for few hours (2 hours maximum) *very very wide grin*

No Health Warning Needed for this Post

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 14:15:36 GMT

After a flurry of activities (work wise) at the end of last week, I finally have some time to blog. Of course, Mobilemom had pestered me many times to continue blogging. "You have a following" said Mobilemom. I don't intend to blog that often, but if I have the time (and the story to tell), I will certainly put something up

You have all read (and seen) the detailed account of today's activities, so there is no need for me dwell on that. While Mobilemom is resting and receiving her fourth drip of "liquid" required to flush her system before the chemotherapy drug, I would just like to write a short dedication to Mobilemom aka dearest wifey for her courage, strength and positive attitude in the face of this disease called CANCER.

In the space of one and a half months, Mobilemom had gone through countless procedures such that I believe every single part of her body have come into contact with some form of medical equipment. If it was not physical in nature, than it may be radioactive or ultrasound or magnetic wave. So, in effect, medical technology has invaded every part of her body. Despite that, Mobilemom took all that with rock solid strength and the unwavering resolve to get well. I remembered an occasion during one of the procedures (bronchoscopy, I think) where Mobilemom was about to receive several dosages of dormicum in order to make her sleep. Most people (the writer included) would have been scared looking at the medical equipment around the room. I would have remained very queit and shivering inside with fear. Instead, Mobilemom managed to put up a smile and asked the doctor "Doctor, am I your patient from hell?" Doctor looked at me and said "I don't think I should answer that".

For me, that single event stood out among all the events during her 22 days stay at the hospital. Maybe, finally, everything sunk into me on that particular occasion. The typical "Why her, why us?" questions started racing into my mind. I tried to block these questions, but they kept coming back. This was also the occasion when my admiration towards my wife was raised to another level. Far from being a patient from hell, Mobilemom you are THE model patient.

WARNING!! - NOT SUITABLE for the WEAKER HEART!!

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 05:48:47 GMT

OH NO!! She's back again on her crazy pictures is she ehh???

*WIDE GRIN* heh heh heh...yeah..I'm back blogging from my hospital bed!! OK.. this is a very weird case of a woman, in her 30's (who happens to have "turning 30 syndrom"), diagnosed with "pleural effusion" or also known as "mesothelioma cancer" a month ago and happily blogging away about her experience being in the hospital.

Fine, call me what ever you want!! It's really weird when I think about going back to the hospital for my "chemotheraphy" and at the same time looking forward for some peace of mind and no stress nonsense what-so-ever!! (lah). My husband thinks I'm a weird one. Cause I tend to look forward for few days stay in the hospital. DUH!!! Do I have a "sick" mind or am i just "sick!!??"

Anyway, for the next couple of days, my husband shall go back to the title of "permanent male nurse". Today, since I'm going for my 2nd "chemo" cycle, hubby has taken the whole day off to help me out in the hospital for admission and other necessary things that needs to be done. Thanks sweetie..*smuck*.

OK...I just want to warn all my readers here that the pictures taken few hours ago are quite gory and scary for some of us. Tell me who "loves" needles and all....

Why do I put up all this pictures? To me, it's a "reminder". It will remind me of all the experience, process and hardship that I had to go through in order to get well and fight my "cancer". It looks scary or gory and probably turn off some of my readers. But then again, this is the reality of MY life now. It's a "new journey of life" that I have to take and get used to. It's the challenge that ALLAH has given to me and I have accepted with an open mind and heart. Therefore, it is a "responsibility" for me to go through this with an open heart, mind and fight for my life and think about my children and my family who needs me. That's why I take my attitude seriously. I have to have the courage, the strength, the will power and most importantly is the "positive mind set". That's why I do not
want negative auras, negative encouragement, negative responds over what ever I do or say or even think. I live to survive and I will survive insya'ALLAH. I have the confidence and believe that time will heal. Even if it takes forever.

Think of those who are probably in a situation that's worst than me. I mean those unfortunate people who has cancer and that they found out at a later stage for example stage IV(4). The chances of survival are even unpredictable too. Just imagine or put our selves in their shoes. It's very important that your mind has to be stable in order to take control of your whole body. Our brains/mind control our body. When we think positive, we feel better. Trust me, I know. I've been there. I am in that situation. I'm experiencing the whole process.

However, there will be time when you feel tired. Tired of fighting. Tired of people around you giving mix aura's and all. Tired of telling your mind to be strong at all times. Then that's where you breakdown. It's OK to breakdown. Let out all the emotions that's been "a mind boggling" experience to your thoughts, your feelings, your fears. It's natural. We are human beings. We're not super human. We have feelings. But you need to fight it. Keep on fighting.

Hmm.. I can tell you that sometimes, I get really tired. When I need to be re-charged, I go out. I go out to get my peace of mind away from the stress environment. Blogging is just half of my "therapeutic" of chanelling(sp) out my thoughts, depression, stress, anger bla bla bla.... the most important thing for me is positive encouragement and environment. STRESS FREE!! (ohh how I desprately want that right now!) I need a vacation!! heh heh heh...yeah right!! I can DREAM.

Anyway, I must WARN MY READERS THAT THE PICTURES BELOW MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR THE WEAKER HEART!! Don't say that I didn't warn you!!! :P

The "long" empty hall way to the "oncologist clinic"...

(Hubby took this picture!) Of course I needed to get my blood test done as soon as I arrived at the hospital. So, as usual...before anything else...I would ask for "the spray"!!! :P

(Hubby needs a new pair of glasses!!) :P The "SPRAY!!" ;) Aiyaahh can't even focus right!! :P

OUCHHH!!!!!!!! EEeeeeekkkkkk!!! Needle!!! I hate needle!!

Ohh uhhh...ohh...eekkkk!! Yup..that's what it is..ouchhh!..

All done and taken to the Lab.... :P

The "L" shape needle!! It's the needle that will be connected to my "chemo port".

That's my "L" needle. Right now, it's already "connected" to my "chemo port". Do I feel any pain? Hmm..honestly, not really. Just a little numb (sp) but it's ok now. All I needed was to get my mind off from concentrating on that "needle"!! The Oncologist did the insertion or should I re-phrase it as "connection" to the "chemo port"!! ;)

My Oncologist was quite pleased with my tolerance of the 1st "chemo" cycle. All the results from my blood test came back normal. Alhamdulillah!!! :)

I'll be resting here doing my "chemo" for the next couple of days. Ahh... the cost of my peace of mind..... (Damn it!!..I missed my kids already!!) *sigh* Arghhh....

My lunch!! Spaghetti!!! :P Yummyy!!...

And now...I'm just resting and watching OPRAH before my "chemo" starts. :)

Packing again....

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 16:31:29 GMT

Just finished packing my stuff to bring to the hospital....

We went out after dinner earlier today just to give my self some peace of mind and also to prepare my self for tomorrow's 2nd cycle of chemo.

Hang out in S.P for about 45 minutes. It rained heavily tonight. After S.P we went to my "twin's" house just to "hang out" a little bit. Had a good laugh and chat about all sorts of things from cars to Ferrari to shit business.

Anyway, won't be blogging much tonight as I'm about to pack up my computer to bring to the hospital tomorrow. We'll be leaving as early as 7:30am I think. (Provided that I can wake up early!)
I'll start blogging back again if my health permits from my ward.

Later folks...

3 hours of QiGong at the NCSM

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 10:07:50 GMT

Today, I was determine to go and learn more about Healing QiGong. But I must admit that I had a mix feeling right after the QiGong session at NCSM.

At the entrance.

We arrived NCSM as early as 9:15am. The beginners supposedly starts about 9:30am. We were very early actually. Well, we had a taste of Intro of QiGong at the gym last wednesday and I decided to try out the healing QiGong today.

At the NCSM. We were early remember!! So..no one was there yet!

The entrance of NCSM. "The banner". Wear a "yellow ribbon" to suport cancer patients!!

The Master QiGong is the same guy who thought us at the Gym. He himself is a cancer survivor. Seeing his recovery and survived cancer makes me wonder the benefits of QiGong for Cancer patients. I heard people say that "QiGong can heal!". But you need to practice it everyday for few hours.

I must admit when everyone started to come in for the class, you can see people from all ages. And everyone there accept my husband are diagnosed with cancer and some probably survived cancer just like the "master qigong" himself. The lady beside me has had breast cancer and it's been 5 years since diagnosed. Another lady, who sat infront of me had a tumour/cancer in one of her kidney. She had it taken out and went through everything from radiotheraphy to chemotherapy. It's been 10 years now since she was diagnosed. You can imagine the feelings and the thoughts that goes through everyone's mind.

There was another lady. A first timer like at the NCSM. The master qigong shared with us her stories and her fears of cancer. She came in looking really sad and demotivated. The doctor told her that she was at stage IV (4). It has spread. I can imagine how she feel. She needs to have a strong will power. But anyone can just say it to her. The thing is, you would never know or understand what goes on through her mind. We don't know at what level of support system that she gets. She looks normal like everyone else. Hmm... that's cancer folks. It can happen to anyone, anybody with or without symptoms. Sad isn't? And you know what?... it has become a common disease. Scary isn't?.....

If we walk into a mind of a cancer patient, we see things differently. We look at things differently from how it was before. We see and take it as a "new journey in life". Some patients can take it with an open mind, positive attitude, strong will power and believe in surviving but some don't. This is something I learn and observed after being diagnosed. We need to take life to the fullest when there's uncertainty. We pray to our GOD and in my case I pray to ALLAH everyday that I'm given a second chance in life. Inys'ALLAH.

"Ya ALLAH, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat untuk mengharungi cabaran serta dugaan yang kau telah berikan kepada ku ini!" (Oh GOD, please give me the strength and the spirits to go through this challenge that you have given to me!) *Amin*

I wanted to take pictures of "us" doing the QiGong but it would be difficult to take while we're doing it so maybe next time another session.....we will see.

I must admit that my first taste of QiGong for 3 hours was really a big challenge. The first one hour and half was practically body movement and I did sweat alot. The first time I did at the gym, it was not too bad really. As for the second session, the movement was all about healing and concentration! (sp)"La Qi" is a special "QiGong" where the "master" transfer his "Qi" to the patients. Well, I and didn't know that at first. Honestly, my husband and was totally "lost" and "tired". It was a whole one hour and half of concerntration (sp) and visualizing on our internal organs. Telling our organs that they are in an excellent shape and all. You really have to stay focus and concentrate on the whole technique. Well, hubby and I "lost it" half way through. We were looking forward to leave and have lunch instead! Yes!! This "cow" was "hungry" again!!....*grin*

As soon as it was over, only then we were told about the 2nd session and what was it all about. DUH!! The "master" said that I'm not relax. True enough. I wasn't. I didn't feel relax. I don't know why. I felt stressed. Probably because I was hungry. But as soon as it was over, I was relaxed and happy to go.

Uhh laa laa.....

The entrance of the restaurant!! :)

Hmm..the menu. What do I want to eat!!??..Hmm...

Hmm..yummyy....and the food has arrived..

Heh heh heh..beat that!! There's 2 of us..and enough food for 4!! *grin*

After...and I was not done yet...notice that I still have my rice to finish up!!

Finally..all done!! FInish!!

Anyway, had our lunch plan set for "Sri Thai". I was feeling hungry and I wanted to have my "thai food" craving again before I get admitted tomorrow for my 2nd cycle of "chemo". And yes..I got my "sri thai food" and it felt good. Well, of course I ate like a "cow". (what else is new anyway!!)

The next thing I wanted to do was to go home and rest.

I felt tired and wanted my rest as we started off early this morning. I woke up very early this morning and couldn't sleep for a while. By the time I got back to sleep, it was time to wake up. So, I had my early breakfast, took my shower and we left for NCSM.

Felt really good when I got home. I got my bed, my WiFi, my computer, my pillow and took a nap. *grin*

What!? How come I'm not mentioned anywhere in your BLOGS??...

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 08:11:36 GMT

Heh heh heh heh....Oyy...I did what!! What do you mean I didn't???????

I did mentioned in my blogs somewhere about my siblings!!! *wide grin* :P Ok lah...sorry loh!!

OK...what's all this racket (lah)? Heh heh heh..err.. it's my sister. Whom I always deny the fact that we look alike!! We don't!! Err..maybe we have that "almost" the same height..however I'm cuter you see. Being the youngest you always look "cute"!! Bwahahahahahaha...*puke-puke*

Today, she complained.."how come I'm not mentioned anywhere in your blogs?" I said..huh? Where got(lah)? "I did mentioned (lah) about our siblings get together and all at the hospital what"..I said.*grinning away and at the same time feeling guilty* Well then again, maybe she's right. I was so tied up with my daily bloggings about my doctors, permanent male nurse, my brother, dad, mom...my sister (once in a while I supposed) and friends, so you tend to go overboard without realizing the fact that one of your siblings was also responsible for helping out while I was in the hospital.

"Sorryy!!!".... How about next time you take me out for a nice dinner at Victoria Station and I'll definately blog more about my siblings!! I mean you (addressing to my sister) heh heh heh heh....tam ti dum ti dum....or..if your husband finds out about your "new alta ego tag hauer"(sp) you can just claim or tell him that you bought this for your "cutest sister in the world"??? *blink blink* How about it? Deal??? hehehehe

My siblings.... there's only 3 of us. We are all happily married siblings with children of our own. We're closed to each other in our own ways. Well, being the "youngest" your eldest siblings would always admit that I get away with "murder"! HAH! I don't think so!! We all have our own "differences" or "ways of our own" of how we see things or life. The age gap between my brother and me or my sister and me is very big you see. I mean.. we're like 8-9 years apart (i think.. if I get my math correctly). So, you can imagine the stress of being treated the "baby" or the "spoiled" one in the family!! In this case, the "most rebelious". :P Honestly, we were not really that closed to each other before this. Only recently when we reached to a point of adulthood..or maybe maturity to accept that we have all have grown up!!

Oh hmmm..I don't have to blog about my brother. I have blogged about him before. It's my sister that I realized I don't blog often. Not because she complained or just teasing me but, i realized that I have not blog much about her. So today, I'm going to blog about my sister whom we used or often quarrel like cats and dogs. Put us in a room together and we'll start scratching each other the next 5 minutes. But that's history. All put aside as soon as I got back from the States. I supposed my siblings saw me "grew up" and became matured. They "saw" me as an adult. So the treatment was different from how it used to be when I was much much younger. What a relief!!

Now, we share quite abit of things together. Though I would "NEVER" (read that in bold) admit to anyone who tells us that we look alike!!! NO WE DON'T!! Oyy, I'm CUTER OK!! *grin* Not saying that she is not pretty. Hey, don't get me wrong. My sister is pretty. She's got a style of her own when she brings her self. While I have mine. Just that..I NEVER admit we look a like. But I do admit she is MY sister.*grin* What? Confused already? Don't need to (lah).

Well, when we broke the news to my parents. It was my sister who has been taking care of my mom while my dad and my brother was visiting me at the hospital. She was there for my mom. She stayed with her incase mom broke down and all. I never got the chance to say Thank you. So now, I'm telling you...THANK YOU!!

My sister has 3 kids of her own. 2 boys and a little princess. (the second grand daughter in our family) Thank GOD!! Atleast my daughter has a "cousin sister" to play with. I was worried at one time that my daughter would be a "tom boy" cause all her cousins were boys. I mean BIG boys. I adore my niece. She is so cute. Though I envy that my niece is fairer than my daughter!! Maybe I should bleach my daughter's skin....*KIDDING*....:P

Anyway, back to the topic of "my sister". I must admit that she has finally got her "dream job" i think. She's doing well. Earning good money and nice bonus at the end of the year!! (But never buys me nice handbag also cehhh!!) :P

We got quite the same taste in handbags and jewelry I think. I mean..we would go to my parent's house and we would see each other's new handbag and we would go like..."wahh new one!!" heh heh heh... or..ehh.. "original ahh??" Teasing away as usual!! That's how we are. Woman..sisters..what do you expect. They do this all the time. I don't see my sister or my brother as a rival. Even though I don't earn a living at the moment, cause I'm working on my thesis but I'm proud of my siblings. I'm proud of having them as my siblings. We had our differences when we were young but we grew out of all that and we are now closer than we ever been. I mean we can "kutuk" (tease) each other without having any grudge. ;P

She was the one who is responsible for introducing me to the "diet program" that she was on. She called me one day and asked me if I was interested to loose weight and of course I said "helloooo!! Yeahhh!! Of course (lah). So, i took her advice and lost weight!! Heh heh heh.. Of course then, I became so much "CUTER" (lah). :P Thanks to her. Then all my friends who saw me slimmed down wanted to go to the same clinic. :)

Anyway sis, I'm so sorry if I didn't mentioned much about you in my blogs before this. (Honestly from the bottom of my heart!!) Of course you know that I love you as my sister. I love my siblings (lah). I adore all my nephews and my only "snow white niece". Just because I may not mentioned us or forgot or too busy blogging about other things, I just want you to know that I'm glad you are my sister. The age gap doesn't matter much now that we're at the same wave length. But i will tell you this though!! I WILL NEVER ADMIT THAT WE LOOK ALIKE!!! :P Cause I'm CUTER!!! bwahahahahahahahahahaha......

On a serious note: Thank you for getting the "aura water" for me while I was in the hospital.

So, how about you get me the filter??? Now that I have blogged about you???? puaa puaa puaaa...

Another Early morning for us today...

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 05:11:29 GMT

Yup...it was another early morning...

We left the house early about 7:15am for our Basic Yoga class at the gym. Today was really exhausting day for me. The yoga that we did today was basically about stretching, breathing and slow movement. Boy, I sweat. I finally sweat and I could feel the sweat on my forehead dripping down to my T-shirt.

Imagine the body aches that I still had from the previous Yoga class and today we had another session of stretching and all. Wow..I can feel the muscle strain in every part of my body!! OUCHHH!!! But it was a good session today. I felt good. I felt fresh and I did feel abit stronger today then other days even though it was exhausting.

Nice ehh!!?...

Another view of the gym....

"Mobilemom" taking a break..with the "old reebok sport shoes!"...

After the yoga, I dropped off my husband as he had work to do today. I decided that I wanted to have some time on my own. Some peace of mind..so I went shopping!! *grin* Again? heh heh heh... it's a therapeutic way for me to get some peace and time alone...

I got my self a new Reebok sport shoes. The one that I have been using, have been really good to me for the past 6 years. I just thought of rewarding my self with a new one. I couldn't afford a NIKE. It's too expensive and the shop where I went didn't have the shoe design that I like.

My "new" Reebok sports shoes!! :) Rewarding my self once in a while.

Then, I went a head shopping for more cheap T-shirts. Got my daughter a new cute purple and pink flowery sandals, my son a new toy, 2 yoga mets so that hubby and I can do our yoga at home.

My son's new laptop. Let me see, his err..3rd Laptop?? (I think!) *sigh*

I was actually sweating while doing shopping. I felt good and strong. Wow..and the lady behind me was probably puzzled because I was sweating away at the cashier counter. Amazing!....

Anyway, I'm back home again. Resting on my bed and at the same time blogging away about my day today. I'm hungry. I wonder what's for lunch today...

Later folks...

It was nice meeting you in person...

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 09:51:08 GMT

"D"....

It's so nice to meet such a sweet and thoughtful person who happens to be one of my readers. It was nice to finally meet up with you!! Yup.. you've just met "mobilemom" in person today. And yes..don't we just adore "stripes" eh? heh heh heh....

I don't know what to say really. I totally didn't expect the "surprise gift" you've given to me. You don't know how much I REALLY REALLY appreciate the "gift" and your nice and kind "gesture". I never thought I would ever own "it". I have read about Lance Armstrong Foundation and never thought I could actually own the band. Actually, when I was told about the website few weeks back, (I was in the hospital at that time!) I thought about purchasing the band. But the process will take time and I've decided to put on hold till later when I'm done with my "chemo" treatment. I know you need to order it through internet and all. So, it was so much hassle then.

But today when I met you for the first time, what you did for me, I want to tell you that your "gift" is very special to me and I want you to know that personally from the horse's mouth!! :) May GOD bless you always. Thank you "D". Thank you for your wonderful kind gesture. When I was told that the "yellow band" was the only one you had and you wanted me to have it, I was almost in tears. I feel honored. I'm so happy and I now owned the "yellow band LIVESTRONG" thanks to you.

The Yellow band...

A close up of the yellow band...

And now, I'm wearing it!! LIVESTRONG!! and Be strong!!

I hardly know you but you gave a very strong positive and wonderful aura to me. Thanks again. I hope you keep on reading my blogs when you have the time to invest. :) I know my blogs are lengthy sometimes. But I share my readers my stories, my experience, my fear, my anger, my thoughts, my happiness, my food cravings/galore ;) and most importantly how I cope with my CANCER. LIVESTRONG!! and be strong!! :)

So my dear "D". Here's to a new "friendship"!! :) Take care and enjoy life!! CHEERS!!

p.s

Special thanks to my "good ole' buddy buddy friend" who introduced us. :) Thanks..

My Lunch date.....

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 09:05:27 GMT

Had a lunch date with hubby's "jambu" today. Well, actually this particular "jambu" is one of my husband's bestfriend who's not married yet by the way!! Anyway, if you go to an "all male boarding school" the term "jambu" is regularly being used to call among themselves. *grin* tee hee heee... Oyy..ok then again I went to an "all girl school" but we don't call each other "jambu" though!! :P

Anyway, I had a great lunch. I ate like a cow obviously!! We went to this place somewhere in Klang Valley. See the pictures and you know what I mean. I quite like the concept of this particular place. Very interesting. I ate seafood speghetti with broccoli soup, bread and some salad. Then had a taste of desert which I shared with "C". Thank you!! :)

Look at the serving of that speghetti!!! :)

Sorry, this shot is a little shaky!!

Ahh..slightly better than the other ehh...

There you go!! That's the place we went for lunch! They have a very interesting concept really. I was told that this was a concept that they brought in from the United Kingdom? Ahh.. so desu ne...

Starbucks!!! It's everywhere!! :P

Heh heh heh Food for thought!! Food Galore??... Choose..please do choose one..or two..or three... ;)

Then we adjurned to Starbucks where "C" wanted to have his "caffeine" suppliment. I settled for apple juice instead. I don't drink coffee. Well, I used to take them when I needed to stay awake during my study and research days. But now days, I just can't take it. Sometimes I can't even smell coffee if it has that strong coffee aroma!! I can tell you that my husband is also a coffee drinker.. but when ever he drinks, I make him brush his teeth right after that. I refused to even kiss him!! :P heh heh heh..

I had a wonderful lunch. Thank you so much "C" for taking me out. I needed that "break" and I got it. Infact, it's one of my best days outing and I'm very happy. Thanks "laling". Thank you!!

OK..Ok...another one...My CURRENT mood...

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 02:57:45 GMT

You Are In a Fantastic Mood

You're confident, focused, and on top of your game. People are attracted to your energy right now. This is the time to go for it - you're likely to get what you want!

What Mood Are You In?

BINGO!! Right on the spot!!

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 02:47:00 GMT

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks. You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent. An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer. Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

BINGO!! Boy, I'm having fun doing all this (lah). Thanks to "CK"! I got the link from her blogs!! heh heh heh