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Saturday, March 19, 2005
Dear Folks,
To all my readers... Just want to inform you that I have "PINDAH" rumah!! Please click to the link and you will be directed to the new "rumah".
Do update the links if you read my blogs every now and then. Terima Kasih...Thanks Folkss..
Cheers.
Please click here!
Posted at 11:32 pm by mobilemom
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Friday, March 18, 2005
Today is just not my blogging day...
Dear Folks,
Please bear with me as today is just not my blogging day. I missed my kids. I just want to go home but I can't. I'm still on the additional drips.
The doctor came in late and I'm only allowed to be released till this drips is off. I'm so pisst and I just wanna go home. I'm so tired.
Anyway, please bear with me as currently "tengah nak migrate blog ni kat another host!!" So..will let you guys know the outcome.
Ahh...just to add on..few minutes ago, the nurse came in and took out my "chemo connection 2.0". I am now free!!! Free from the drips!! I can go home!! But first, I need to take a nice hot shower!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
Later folks.
Posted at 08:47 pm by mobilemom
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
My Thoughts and My Peace of Mind....
I wrote this, this morning while staring at my ward window looking out towards the world outside. It may not be something you see in the European Countryside view with the snow at the peak of a mountain and all but, it's good enough to appreciate some little greens, nature and most of the mushroom bricks of shop houses and all...
Wrote it on a napkin then transfered it online to this blog.
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CANCER,
It's no longer a death sentence;
It's no longer a disease that attacks the older generation;
It's getting common in this up beat new generation;
CANCER,
Anyone may have it without you knowing it;
Around you, within your circle of friends;
Just like you and me, our children, sisters or brothers and relatives or families;
Don't be afraid of it;
Don't let it get into you;
Fight it! Be Strong! Be Positive and Heal your emotions and your thoughts about it;
Put the illness behind you;
Go on with your normal life;
Have your peace of mind;
CANCER,
Can be a blessing in disguise;
ALLAH must have given it to us for a reason;
Believe in his reasons;
And don't question the WHY'S...
There is a cure if we believe in it and be strong to believe that we can survive;
So be STRONG, Be TOUGH, Be POSITIVE and have all the will POWER to fight till the end.
By Mobilemom©2005
I'm not afraid, I want to live, to survive for my children and my family and I believe that ALLAH works in a mysterious ways. Insya'ALLAH.
Posted at 11:19 am by mobilemom
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4th Day after 2nd Chemo cycle....
The Oncologist nurse came in early as usual. Woke me up from my beauty sleep...asked me several questions again.
An hour later, my Oncologist came to check on me. Asking me few questions too. Based on my answers and what I'm feeling, I'm not allowed to be discharged today. So, it's going to be more monitoring situation again as usual.
More medication to add.
More drips to flush out my systems.
Something for my headaches as and when needed.
Blood test will be done this morning.
More time for some peace of mind and relaxation even though hospital food sucks big time!!
CONCLUSION: I don't mind. I'm OK. I needed all the rest and to make sure that everything in my internal system is doing what it's supposed to do. Anything for the price of GETTING HEALTHY BACK AGAIN so that I can have my normal life (Insya'ALLAH) and be there for my children and family always.
p.s
To both my siblings, THANK YOU for lending me your ears and listening to my worries.
Posted at 09:01 am by mobilemom
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
3rd Day After 2nd Cycle Chemo....
Tired.... I feel very very tired easily...
Nausea comes off and on...
Headaches comes off and on...
Appetite wise still eating well...(i think)...
Still on drips till tomorrow morning...
Discharged depends on my blood test tomorrow morning too...
CONCLUSION: I NEED TO REST and RELAX MORE.
LIVESTRONG!! Be STRONG!!
[But somehow, I feel a very strong burden on my shoulder. Something that I just can't seem to find a solution to ease the pain and the burden off my shoulder. I need to get my focus on my CANCER at the moment. And not something that will make me think or worry more than what I need right now.]
Posted at 08:57 pm by mobilemom
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For my friends CK and F...
Hey, look I got the "unkymood" thingy too!! They are so cute!! CK...kalau ada lagi all this FUN thingy, let me know!! :) *grin*
Anyway, thanks so much for helping me to get that "thingy" for me. (shyyyyy) The reason why I wanted it so much is because I was "touched" by someone whom I don't even know and gave me one. Which you can read it in one of my blogs.
Do let me know when it has arrived at your place. I will make all the necessary arrangement. THANKS ALOT from the bottom of my heart.
Take care you guys...Have a great week ahead.
P/S..Heh heh heh tried this one too CK. Heh heh...
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Posted at 09:05 am by mobilemom
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Got up about 6:30am (I think) cause of nature calls.
My neck felt really stiff. It could be the position that I slept last night.
Few minutes later while I was trying to get comfortable again on my bed, the oncologist nurse "L" came and visited me again. She does that every morning since I got admitted for my Chemotheraphy. Checking how I was coping and all. Telling her how I was feeling and all.
Hubby finally dragged his feet out from his bunk. This ward is really cold at night and in the mornings. We tend to get really "lazy" to freshen up just because it's cold and we can't control the tempreture as it's central aircond. *sigh*
Ohh... I told my brother last night that I was going to blog about him and his kids today. I was stunned actually as I saw my two young nephews who happens to be standard 5 and Form 2 (I think) watching "wrestling"!!! WRESTLING?? AWWMAAGAWWDDD!!! Who watches that CRAP!! My brother seems to know all the techniques of wrestings and all. I'm stunned!! He watched them since he was in the States!! DUH!! Helloooo!!! Of all the 100 channels they have you guys watched Wrestlings there?? In Jonesboro???? Oyyy... sad case la oyyy!!! (Aiyooh!!) The kids was like excitedly watching and laughing and ooohhh..I dunno!! What ever it is..I told them not to exposed it to my kids. ESPECIALLY my daughter!! Cause I can forsee that she may be able to wrestle and bully her brother!! Ohh no!!...Definately a BIG NO NO!!! Better start getting my daughter all the "girlie stuffs" from now. :P
Yesterday I was so embarrased when 3-4 nurse came in and told me that I have put on weight and my face looks so round!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! All the effort of me loosing weight last time just gone down the drain!! That's it!! Once all this "chemo" treatment is done and all, I'm gonna cut all my food intake in HALF!!! :P~ *sob* *sob* Well, I've reached to the weight that is recommeded by my dietician. But it sort off went 1kg more. So, I want to loose that 1kg. Don't care!! Say what you people want to say!! :P~~~ Even my hubby's bestfriends came and told me I have put on weight!! Arghhhhhhhh... Damn those steroids and appetite pills!!! Off with those pills!! Off with those pills!!! These are the pills which makes my cravings for food goes bezerks. I crave as if I was pregnant and I AM NOT!! Damn it!!
Anyway, I need to drag my feet off this bed soon before the doctors comes in to "check" on me. There's two of them really. My lung specialist and my Oncologist. I wouldn't want them to see me in yesterday's clothes. Eeeeiiii shyy!!
Posted at 08:09 am by mobilemom
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
2nd Cycle Chemotheraphy Reaction....Effects...
Hmm.. I must admit that this time around, the physical and internal effect of my chemotheraphy is quite different from the 1st cycle. No too sure why. Possible of dosage, cause I know that this time around, the doctor whacked me 120% "chemo treatment". While the 1st chemo was 100%.
The difference is that I get very tired more often even though I'm in bed resting, blogging or walking to the toilet while pushing the pole on my own. (when the permanent male nurse is at the office).
Next is the after effect. Which is nausea. I get it quite often. So I have to ask for the anti-nausea medication every now and then when ever I need it. *yukkk* *double sigh*.... Thank god I have not thrown out yet. *phew*
Sometimes my fingers tend to tremble or gets shaky before I have my meals. Probably my sugar level is low. Or if I exert my self doing Yoga or QiGong and all.
I get headaches every now and then...well, off and on kind of thing I suppose. I assume it's the extra dosage. I will ask the Oncologist tomorrow when he comes in.
When I talk...(which I talk alot and hardly stop sometimes...*grin*) I tend to get shortness of breath. So, I should not talk so much and keep on blogging!! Let my fingers do the talking!! heh heh heh...
Ok folks..I'm waiting for my "graveyard shift" brother and his family to come and visit me. I assume that he is on the way here now. Getting a little groggy also at the same time. All this medication in my systems...*sigh*
Gnite folks...
Posted at 10:05 pm by mobilemom
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More pics from my CHEMO Treatment....
Heh heh heh...
Well, actually it's apart of the whole process of my "chemo treatment". Some are taken yesterday and I combined them with today.
The drips..all over again...
Next drip please....goshh...
There you go...on the infusion pump pole again...
More injections!! I think that was the steroid thingy last night or was it the anti-nausea. :P
Huh..there's more...:( *sigh*
Infusion pump..notice the "black plastic cover"? It's the "chemo treatment" which started of early this time at about 11pm I think.
More injections. I think this one is the anti-nausea.
Goshh that's how slow it is. The flushing is faster than the "chemo treatment". ;P
There's more injections!! :P This one, I can't remember what it was.
The view from my bed. It's a little dark but the view is nice. Refreshing!! :)
OK folks...off to rest again. Getting sleepy with the medication. Later...
Posted at 02:42 pm by mobilemom
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I'm stunned..I'm speechless..
When I read the entry below written by my "PMN", I was in tears inside. No matter how many times I read it yesterday and this morning, I was practically in tears all over again.
Quietly seating on my hospital bed facing the window view of the "famous residential area" in K.L. My husband once told me, it would be his dream to live here. I went like...DUH!! Don't think so.. we're staying put at where we are Thank you very much!!! ;P
Anyway, back to my thoughts and my stunned-ness (if there's such a word) of my husband's entry in my blogsite. He was seating quitely on the bed tapping away on his computer while my dad and cousin was blabbering away about ships..of all the motherships..cruise ships..merchant ships...bla bla bla....
I never thought of imagine what he was planning to blog last nite.
I would usually look forward for his funny sarcarstic, bold or silly stupid jokes about things he sees or thoughts of him planning for something that not many people (as a husband especially) would do. But instead, last night, I got a surprised entry coming in from my husband's heart. Beats all the romantic things or nice gesture in the world that I would think off. I was speechless and I was in tears.
But, I became stronger, I became re-energized. I was determine to get well even more for my children and for my families. (Including my parents, siblings and their families and not to forget my inlaws too). Thank you my dearest and wonderful and funny husband for your kind and beautiful thoughts.
To my bestfriend, lover, sweetheart, husband, love of my life....who's also known as permanent male nurse, infusion pump pole pusher, nanny to our children, husband and guardian to our family, financial controller while I'm sick, "private entertainer" (ohh shut off your naughty thoughts people!!), personal clown, and most important...my soul mate.....
There is no words in the world right now that I can say but I love you with all my heart and soul. I am a very lucky woman to have met you at the right time and at the right place through that special "mailing list". Thank you. Thank you for every little and big things plus your sacrifices of your time at work and juggling it for me.
OK..for that I shall give you your "PELITA NASI KANDAQ" or "MAHBOB" or "KAYU" night out with your bestfriends. ONLY for couple of hours!! *wide grin*. Please get your bestfriend to fill in some "off duty" forms for few hours (2 hours maximum) *very very wide grin*
Posted at 12:03 pm by mobilemom
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Who am I?
A woman, a designer mom of 2 hyper kids with "turning 30 syndrome".
Why do I Blog?
A channel for letting out my brains to talk rather than thinking and suppressing it. Ohh..wait even better!! I have a very bad headache and my brains doesn't seem to stop thinking so it wants to express itself!!
Location?
How about sitting infront of my laptop in the dark?
How old am I really? Honestly?
Probably around 11,648 days old! (I think!!) Then again, I'm not an accountant and I FAIL in MATHS!! I think most designers HATE the subject!!
What Am I Diagnose With?
I am diagnozed with "Pleural Effusion Andocarcinoma"(sp) or another term for it is called "Mesothelioma Malignant" something. I was told that this Cancer is very rare here in this country. How did I get it? We have no idea. Currently I'm going through my "chemo treatment procedures". It's a type of cancer which is located at the lining of the lungs. I only knew about my condition in early February. What can I say?... Well, if you have the time to invest, and you want to know what goes on in this puny hyper active brain of mine, read on my blogs. Do leave your comments if you like and I will reply to your comments when ever I have the time. Thank you for all your support and encouragement.
What I NEED and DON'T NEED right now?
I need POSITIVE aura surroundings!!.I DON'T NEED people telling me what I should or should not do bla bla bla. I'm under full "chemo treatment" medication and the doctors knows best. It's important for me to go on with a POSITIVE mind set. I need to survive, go on with my normal life, get all the strength and will power to carry on with my normal routine and make it better. I'm fighting for my life. I put the illness behind me so that I can go on my normal life with my children and family. Thanks again everyone, my friends, my readers for all your support and encouragement. This is important for me. Insya'ALLAH.
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Anyway, don't forget to sign my GUESTBOOK below!! Sometimes, I would like to know more about my readers. Where you are from, or how you got to my site. I know some of my readers are my friends. But for those whom, I may not know, do tell me where you are from and all. I'd appreciate it so much!! :) Thank you folks.
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